Fear and worry

Ok now this was the original post that I was solely going to do so here goes.I finally realised a few weeks back that pretty much throughout my entire life ive let fear consume me and dictate what i do.Ive worried far too much for my own good and at a detriment to actually enjoying my life.Heres some examples,when i was 17/18 i used to go clubbing quite abit but in all honesty rarely truely enjoyed myself because i was always too on edge and nervous incase somebody hit me as those things happen in clubs from time to time as people will know,not just that but i worried for some odd reason that my drink might get spiked!So I was constantly on alert and never relaxed and that isnt what having fun is all about.Its not to say that i never had good nights out though as i did but i guess it depended on to the degree i was letting my worries and anxiety dictate me.Anyway thats one example and heres a few others,this year ie 2011 id really like to take up boxing and just join a gym to work out generally but im finding it hard to put it into practise because i keep thinking to myself what happens if the people at the boxing gym and the regular gym dont like me or dont take to me or think im an idiot,etc and because of these thoughts its putting me off going and doing those activities.Now another big fear i have is being independent,now as alot of you will know i still live with my parents at the mo which is mainly due to the fact that i have depression and they help me out,etc but a big or actually HUGE fear of mine is that if/when i move out on my own that i wont be able to look after myself properly ie i wont be able to pay my own bills,wont know the correct people to contact if things go wrong ie appliances,etc or wont be able to hold down a job and il end up homeless or living with my parents as a sad 40 odd yr old!On top of those other fears im worried about my mum believe it or not,the reason im worried about her is my mum has invested alot of her time into helping me in numerous different ways and part of me is worried that when i move out and become an independent man that she'll be abit lost and become fed up.Thats a big fear of mine i have to say and its something definietly stopping me progressing i believe.Anyway i guess the general idea of this post was to say that I and we in general shouldnt let fear control our lives as we only live for a amall period of time and we should make the most of that time we have.I think all of us in general in variant degrees let fear dictate us but I guess life is about taking risks and not being afraid,I guess you need a little fear as it keeps you safe but not too much!Anyway thanks for reading and give me feedback.Matt xx