Anxiety levels up

Now its 3:50 am,ive woken up and feel jittery and on edge,I know this feeling only too well!My Anxiety and subsequent panic attacks are primarily related to one thing and that is EATING!Now people will read this and think ive have some kind of eating disorder like anorexia or something and i can assure you its nothing of the like.For aslong as I can remember and i genuinely dont know where this came from aside from at one particular time i thought i was dying or something ive been absolutely scared to death of vomiting!Whereby a normal person rationalises it, my mind seems to be overwhelmed by negative thoughts and scenarios if it strongly feels like im going to be sick.Basically sheer terror sets in instead of oh im being sick because i have a bug or something didnt agree with my stomach i get all these thoughts and questions rush into my head in a really overwhelming manner,things like "How do you know that it isnt something more serious?!" "if i throw up then my heart is going to race and it wont slow down and im going to have a heart attack and die!" I know to rational 'normal' people this just seems bizarre and hard to fully grasp but I can assure you its bloody horrible!Fear and the human mind are both powerful tools whether they're working in your favour or against it!Ok seeing as I went off on a bit of a tangent there il explain how eating comes into this,well here goes,Over the last few days for some reason my appetite hasnt been good and ive not eaten as much as i should because of that.Well what starts to happen is I start relating eating to throwing up and thus dying!Yes its screwed up isnt it!!However on the same token i have the fear and its a rational one of well if i dont eat then il starve to death eventually!So basically the cycle goes round and round,a constant stream of doom and worry and i wouldnt wish it on anyone because the thing ive found over the years is that fear itself is normally worse than the thing that you're fearful of!Anyway I hope I gave you some kind of insight into my screwed up little brain!Lol.Thanks for reading,Matt x